吉他

我喜欢弹吉他

以前会觉得弹吉他很酷

虽然现在觉得弹吉他还是一样酷

我不爱唱歌 我有自知之明

不好听的声音就不要吓人

可是我会哼歌 一边弹一边哼

我也不是那种你能够对我点歌的人

我弹的歌可能大部分你们都没在听

我很喜欢手指头跟吉他弦的摩擦

然后起茧 

起茧后会觉得很有成就感

如果久没弹茧就会脱掉

可是手指头已经是被磨平了

没有在发什么音乐家的梦的啦

纯粹玩爽

可是我会希望有一天能够在你面前弹一首「霖」死你的歌

一个人

从头到尾就只是一个人

是我已经习惯性地一个人还是真的命运就是这样

感觉上好像可以摆脱这所谓的一个人生活

可是自己却告诉自己一个人生活没有不好啊

一个人好吗？

就这样一个人好吗？

继续的一个人吗？

Random mood post

I don't know why am I missing you so much recently.

I'm kinda worrying about you sometimes. I know you are good enough to take care yourself. 

You always came unexpectedly and off yourself like you really have a switch for it. 

I also know this is forbidden and I shouldn't have such feeling on you. 

But I just couldn't help it. I'm trying my best to not to step deeper. 

I really miss talking with you. Can we just do the talking. Can we? 

Flash Mob like Step Up Revolution!

I must write this down, I mean I need to blog this
I got a Flash Mob job last month. And I have to DANCE! 
To promote an English radio station contest... 
Firstly, of course is the payment attracted me to do this job. 

Yesterday, was the last day of the flash mob. 
I never have so much fun with these people. They are crazy and so hyperactive! 
Event bosses are damn good person! Videographer and photographer lagi siao! hahaha 

Ya, back to yesterday, we had a party in Sunway Giza and all the beer and drinks were free flow! 
We danced like no tomorrow in the pub! Wearing all red and dancing, we did catch a lot of attention
 from the passerby. 
No, should say like this, we always create attention when we gathered around. 

And for the very first time, I danced till my leg cramped and everyone helped me beside of the stage! 
Yesterday was really really happening! I gotta miss them all so much! 
I am so proud to say that I was a flash mobber and danced in the public! 
And... I went for the second round at Stage KL. Again, danced like no tomorrow. So effing tired till
I really can't feel my leg. 

I woke up this morning and ohmaigawd my leg! 
I am off for my vacation in few more hours but I haven't get my stuff packed yet! 


Hell yeah, beach and sun I am coming to you!!! 

I can't go back to my hometown for Autumn Mid Festival this year. :( 

第三章 | 结局

其实咧
猜都猜到了
哪里可能会是我我

不过也好
算是解决了
不会再去想了

听到的那瞬间
还是会不舒服
可是隔天后，感觉不过如此

我想就这样吧~

第二章

看到你的部落格更新了
可是又再一次觉得你部落格的他不是我
感情这东西我真的玩不起
你一次一次给了好像答案的答案
然后又一次一次让我感觉我好像被玩弄

你捉着我的手讲了一句
一句让我想了很久的一句
可能对你不是什么东西的一句
可是那一句可以让我想爆头耶！
我真的会乱想很多可能性

算了啦，这全部只是在证明感情这种东西不是设计给我的


跟自己最好的死党北上完了3天3夜
大脑是完全地放松完了3天3夜
玩地很不想回家的那种

实习也差不多七七八八了
回学校的日子也差不多了
也应该收拾心情应付大学生涯里最后一个学期

什么垃圾全部给我死一边去

第一章

可能你不知道

我一直在等着你部落格的更新

我也知道你部落格提到的人不会是我

×突然间眼睛很累× 

你邀我出去我永远不会拒绝

我尽我最大的可能赴约

那天我做了件我难以置信的事情

对我来说是一步很大的一步

可能对你来说只不过小事情

以前的你很爱做弄我

虽然现在的你也是

我喜欢你戳我，弄我，打我，捏我，撞我，拉我衣服，玩我外套

朋友都说你在玩弄我而已

可是... 我... 就是喜欢让你弄

给自己的承诺

答应自己

在未来的五年一定要实现那个梦想

不管是自己一个人还是找个拍档

埋头苦干个3到4年

然后辞工

然后定张机票去一个地方

去个1到2个月才回来

可能在读着这篇鬼东西的你会想‘还有酱久讲什么嘛可以’

可是
人没有梦想，那就跟咸鱼没有分别

哪怕是10年还是20年

只要没有世界末日，我要做的东西多的是！

现实太恐怖了，

我还是回去我的梦想先。 

07072012 Rainy

Well I guess is time to do some update in this little space.
Even though here has been abandoned for quite a long time and ya, even though no one is visiting this dusty place I still going to update it. A only space that I can say whatever I want, my story and what's happening around me.

Basically, is almost half way of internship already. And I was told by Art Director that, next Monday there will be an intern coming in. I was like Ohhh, intern... A writer intern, guess is a Banana again. Ya, English English English.... Have been talking English for more than 6 weeks already... Yea, and I like it. :D
So far internship is good, and I appreciate everything of the work. What surprised me was, Art Director actually asked me for being a freelance designer after I finished internship. YAY, THEY WANT ME!! *still happy even though is just freelance because this mean they think I am good in working with them. :)

And there is one thing I hate about the internship is the REPORT! Damn it. I was like didn't send my report to my supervisor since I started my internship, I owed her 3 or 4 bi-weekly report. Gosh, still have to rush for it later after I finished blogging.

And quite a lot of things happened around me and a friend. Not going to talk much about this friend. Let's make it mysterious. Another friend was so curious why am I so friend with this friend. And I answered him with ermmm.... eh.... ah.... ya, we took bus together during year 1, that's why we are so friend. *ya, I know, ridiculous answer. But anyway, had some great moment with the mysterious friend. :)

Ya, is boring Friday night for me again, ever since I started my internship, I never NEVER NEVER go out to have they so-called FRIDAY NIGHT! Why other can have it so simple but not for me? Seriously, I really can't get over with this. Ya, and is happened again today! Well, not going to talk much about this also. I can't expect so much also. Less expectation always makes my life better.

Ok, done with the talking, back to those bloody report now~

7June12 Sunny

As I mentioned before, it is really fun working in my internship company... 

I can even feel like not going back home so early or even don't want weekend come so fast.

Everyone wants Friday but is really mean nothing to me... 

I know how precious of other workers think of Friday night.

When I can't go back hometown to see my family, and friends have their own plan without me, all these will making me emo when I am alone in the room. I damn hating this!! 

That's why I feel better when I have something to do in the office, at least I won't feel so lifeless. 

You might think I am too over or what, but really, I felt so much better in the office. Doing the task and work that I liked. 

Always like this, the routine will never change. 

I can't speak anything about this, can please not to do the thing that I have warned! 

And I need respond when I am talking. I was sitting there, respect please! 

KaiXin 

Recently

Have been emo for the entire week
Emo about pointless stuff, Emo about random stuff... I shouldn't ever think about that anymore.
Is not helping in my life... Since u just want to be happy... Within my ability I will let u be happy :)
Forgot all those negative things and working in office makes me feel better.
At least I won't feel lifeless...

-Internship-
Anyway, my internship is doing great so far and I kinda like this job
Colleagues and bosses treat me like one of their family
They worried me for the transportation hustle, worried about am I have enough money to use
And at the first day of June, Gwen, the director handed me a cheque and asked 'know how to bank in?'
How good if I can work there after i graduated...

My directors are so cute can die XD
Even a meeting can be so fun! I was laughing so badly during the meeting!
I like everything of my internship... I am sure going to be super sad by the time i have to leave there
Feel like asking to extend my internship...
Doing things that I am interested is really makes me feel blessed. :)
Well, sometimes when lack of some idea is quite torturing me :(
Have to work hard for that.

-Friends-
I am a person that can not live without friends
As in I can't walk alone in the mall, I cannot eat alone outside, I cannot watch movie alone in cinema...
Bla bla bla, overall, I need friends in my life! Not asking for many many, but few and close one is good enough.
Because of internship and cannot stick with course mates everyday. And we did have a gathering during weekend, and is really good to see them all doing great.
We will meet soon in campus... and appreciate each others : )

For gang, hangout last weekend to celebrate friend's belated birthday and was in CLUB!
Only a word to describe -AWESOME-
Should do this more often ;D

-Family-
Again, because of Internship and I cannot go back hometown that often like how I did during school days.
This is the 3rd or 4th week that I didn't go back already. But luckily dad bought an iPad so I still can see them : )
And this gadget makes my parents so cute. My mum doesn't even know to play disc in DVD player and now she can FaceTime with me by her own.
For my dad, OMG, he is just another gadget freak... hahaha

Requested a vehicle from parents...
And after I requested that I really felt I'm a bad kid that never think on the behalf of them.
In fact, I need a car so badly to travel to office and home... since my driver friend is not any more longer living in the same area with me... :( He has to back to hometown to take care his family business...
Sorry Ba, Sorry Ma! Sorry for everything. :'(

转死性

这样的感觉真的不好受

整个人失去重心，不能够专心

很久没有试过这样了

我承认了

这门东西真的不是我玩的

能怎样

往往在夜深的时候

就会有特别多的感触

今天被一位朋友

很突然地问了一句问题

顿时真的不懂如何回答

不过真的需要正视一下了

看到很多迹象

看来我之前想多了

that's it

i dont want to talk about that anymore

every time i only received that so called what so ever face expression

i am done with that

that's it!

not in the mood for this whole week...

assignments! i gonna effing kill u!!!

那感觉又来了

怎么感觉上我都在原地踏步

其他人都在改变，变得跟好

讲完了

害怕

请不要让一个刚刚介入你生活的人

来打乱我们以前一伙人的作息

就因为太了解

就因为太懂你

再跟你谈天的时候

你的眼神和举止

我真的看得透的

不是我要有偏见

可是当下看到你的眼神和举止

你没有那以前的兴奋

我大概懂发生什么事

那一刹那

感觉到了

我失望了

我害怕的事情

请不要让它发生

我是个把友情看的很重很重真的很重的一个人

星座关系吧～

心力交瘁

当你告诉我那个他时

我还不以为然是他

只是觉得很像

怎知道真的是他

看了看他的脸书

看着的当下心情真的很复杂

真的很复杂

这么会是他？

而且还是影响你那么深的一个他

我该怎样好

在你还没告诉我他是谁之前

我就以前套了一个隐形的‘不知道什么的形容词’ 在他身上

我很难不去不懂这个人

因为他的一切，走在学校，就是一个很鲜艳的物体

对不起啊朋友

我需要一点时间

真的很需要

太奇怪了啦！！！

病到五颜六色

真的很讨厌不在自己家的时候生病

吃了药过后

睡醒头重脚软

自己买药自己医自己

整个礼拜都没睡好

天天熬夜熬到3-4点

为作业牺牲了自己的肝

熬到肝火盛

一触即发

发病了～

拿命啊

做FYP做到很显啊！

朋友们都能早早睡（和我一起奋斗的同学另外讲）

我多久没有在12点准时睡觉了

12点对我来讲算很早了

快点结束吧！

我不要做FYP了！！！

想不到题目

这一刻的心情

真的很低落

为了这件事 伤心了不懂多少次

一直在期待的东西

一次又一次被狠狠地打进谷底

我很累啊

我很辛苦啊

这就是我

我的性格就是

你不踩过我心里那条界线你完全是没问题的

可是

当我认识了你的另一面

然后你的那一面是我不能接受的

不好意思

我跟你就点到为止

真的

只要给我认清楚了看清楚了

对不起咯

我的大脑会控制我不去跟你交流

你会觉得莫名其妙

你会觉得我很虚伪

你会觉得我双面人

可是我管你！

我既然不想理你

我管你怎样想！

如果你是对的

我不可能会不想跟你讲话

当然我是成年人

我不会到完全不跟你讲话

就只是我会变到对你很冷漠

ok，讲完！

就是伤不起

典型狮子座的我

当来到这种关卡就是爱怪自己的星座

爱面子爱到不懂怎样形容

输不起到某种极端的水平

怕说了没办法回头

怕说了后果会难以估计

第23个年头

还是依然没有改变

悲哀

每天

好像已经变了习惯

输入那特定的地址

看着久不久就会更新的部落格

就是想知道发生什么事

大学最后年之可怕性

在开学之前就已经担心毕业习作或俗称Final Year Project a.k.a FYP

学期开始了，就如我说的担心也一起开始

首先，中了一个被我们学校的一个怪咖的老师，也就是我接下来一年的毕业习作监督人

只有4个字形容他 - 哈利波特！

他口操的是英式英文，画工是可怕的一流！

不说他了，欲知详情请直接找我。

接下来，这个学期的作业或俗称assignment也是可怕到不能用言语来形容

如果两天没看到我的请打电话给我妈～

真的忙到出去吃饭就真的只吃饭

好啦，讲完作业的可怕性就聊下别的吧～

这个学期也要开始搜索下个学期的工业实习的公司了

也就是说又要准备我的代表作目录或俗称portfolio

然后寄出去等通知然后面试然后准备做上班族

是有在期待我的工业实习啦～

可是东西永远不如期待的完美

学长学姐都已经告知我们实习的可怕性

算了

不懂对不对

真的很想告诉你

提起勇气

踏出那一步

想试一试

可是输不起

all for CNY

cut my hair last few days ago, shorter this time...

now is just left put on colour ;D

my sister will help me for that... she is my personal dyer! hahaha

finally done all the CNY shopping today

was so worrying that can't get all the things done before the biggest festival of chinese

bought another brand for the shoe! starting to collect different brand that i like. hehe :D

this time is an animal brand shoe! haha was having a hard time to choose, and my friends helped me for giving advises.. XD

accidentally bought extra pants... but never mind, i guess i will wear in one day! hehee

came back home will almost-patah-leg!

but if i can get few more t shirt will be better~

羡慕变习惯

总是很容易就羡慕别人的生活

我已经把‘羡慕别人’当成我的习惯了

朋友都告诉我要知足

我得到了我要的物资可是偶尔... ...

就是会胡思乱想

我不喜欢被拿来讨论

或者说我选择逃避

告诉了我最信任的你

可是每次都是很冷淡的结束

有时我会选择少聊自己

就收在心里

留来改次做纪念或者忘记也算了

还有3个小时就天亮了

晚安啦，地球人~

夜晚

很爱夜晚的我

承认自己是个夜猫子

所以我大概知道我的肝的状况

对不起啦，阿肝~

喜欢夜晚 静静的

不会有其他杂声

我可以很专心的

做我的东西

想一些事情

就在这个还很新鲜的夜晚

我突然想起一件事

想起你好像问过我那问题

可能大脑就是少了这条筋

你好像给了很多暗示

还是我想太多