i don't know how long i can sustain

suddenly i can feel all the bad coming to me

-almost lost phone

-bumped car to a lorry

-felt down when practicing

all happened in one week, how a normal person can handle all these?

tell me la! who? who?

i really can not endure so much bad thing happened to me, when i playing in court, i really feel stress and stress. i loss to someone that i really can beat down

what i am doing?

i was lonely there

i really wanna cry when i read my friend's message

the message was nothing special

i feel pity, cool and lonely again

i am not flexible, it's take time

i not strong anymore, i need someone to accompany me to talk with me

after today training, my brain sent me a message

'how about just quit?'

as my friend said

'don't be like that'

'just do what you wanna do'

'you put a lot of effort and money in this competition'

'don't care what they are doing there'

'that's their business'

i'm breaking down

my place to survive is my friend's gang

i live so happy in there, with them

one more week then i will go back to where i suppose to be!