Monday, March 31, 2008

i don't know how long i can sustain

suddenly i can feel all the bad coming to me
-almost lost phone
-bumped car to a lorry
-felt down when practicing
all happened in one week, how a normal person can handle all these?
tell me la! who? who?
i really can not endure so much bad thing happened to me, when i playing in court, i really feel stress and stress. i loss to someone that i really can beat down
what i am doing?
i was lonely there
i really wanna cry when i read my friend's message
the message was nothing special
i feel pity, cool and lonely again
i am not flexible, it's take time
i not strong anymore, i need someone to accompany me to talk with me
after today training, my brain sent me a message
'how about just quit?'
as my friend said
'don't be like that'
'just do what you wanna do'
'you put a lot of effort and money in this competition'
'don't care what they are doing there'
'that's their business'
i'm breaking down
my place to survive is my friend's gang
i live so happy in there, with them
one more week then i will go back to where i suppose to be!

Sunday, March 30, 2008

wah, almost...


yesterday, i ran back to school after training. i use my fatest speed to run back. as fast as i can. i think there is about 150meters something la (from SRJK(C) to SMKM). i was looking for my principal to sign me the form and get the surat kebenaran from him.


when i reached school gate then i saw a lot of people crowded there. i have no time to go look what happend there, i think there was a small accident and two drivers were argue there. because of them, traffic jam happened in front of school.


haiya, whatever la, that is their business, i have something important to do. so i keep running and running, i went to disicpline room at the first but there was no teacher inside, then i asked my friend


" tau mana tak bilik pengetua?"

he said "kat pejabat sana"

"ok, thank you"


now i only wondering how much i know about the my school -_-"'

i think my friend sure laughing at me, i can think he will say this in his heart


"apalah ni, bilik pengetua pun tak tau, hahaha"


sigh~ and my mission is get to see principal, finally~ i saw 'cute' principal. i asked him to sign me the form and surat kebenaran. when he doing his matter i called my mummy to come school to fetch me. i took my phone out from bag.


"mi, come school fetch me now, i,m in school now."

"ok, i am coming"


after that i talked with principal, i didn't advert where i put my phone. all my friend know my phone is half of my life. after all documents signed then i walked down to gate and wait for my mum. (finally no need to run adready). chatting a while with friends who waiting for bus. then after about 2 minutes, i saw my car was here. then sure i went on la. i am sweaty. >.<


now only i check where is my phone. i open all my bag zips. cant find it!



"where is my phone?"



i am so so worry. i can feel that my heart is stop beating. and my mummy start lessoning me. the war begin.



"see, i told you. always look after your thing"

"hei, is my first time lost my important thing le"

"why you didn't check your bag and pockets just now while waiting for me"

"how i know i will lost my phone!, faster turn back to school la!"

"think where you put just now"

"i called you in principal office"

"haiyo, sure lost already, school got so many people went in went out"



finally reach school, i ran again. climbed up to second floor opened the door. i turn my vision to the sofa i sit just now. Hahahaha, luckily! my phone still there waiting for my hug! XD. my heart start beating again already. went back to my car. my mummy looked at me with unfriendly eyes. when i get in to the car.


"i think you better don't bring your nice phone to your MSSP, go bring the old one"

"no way, that's my phone, without my phone i sure bore to death"

bla, bla, bla.... till home.



the first thing my mummy did is CALL MY DAD, and tell him the course of my phone lost. i already knew that is my mummy pattern.


whatever la, the important is i found my phone back. thanks god!


Friday, March 28, 2008

third day

training serve, fore-hand, back-hand, .....
train to be stronger! yahy!!
have to get prepare for the match from now.
today when i get to the court, feel lonely la~
no same age friend accompany me to play and train
i feel like i have been boycott by the other.
i no rich like them, sometimes i talk to them, they ignore me some more.
what i did o? feel suffer de le!
why the way you treat me no like last time how you treat the player that same age with me?
feeling down and then my serve will be not nice!
do you know how much excited i waiting for this?
have to face them for 1 more week from now! HATE~
but i have to be positive mind to face all these!!
so i bought me a tennis bag!
and finally i own it now! blek~
now next target is a new racket (wilson n code pro)
saving money to buy, wish next year can own it!! must GAMBATEH!
go go go~











wilson k factor

Thursday, March 27, 2008

tired and excited

just finish second day training~ my leg damn pain after training.
using ice bag to reduce the pain right now.
today practice didn't like yesterday, yesterday training was tough.
maybe today i got a bit lazy with it. take a rest and chat with sir lee(one of our coach)
i keep asking all tennis stuff price, like tennis bag and the racket.
confusing now~ all those stuff are not cheap! where i get the money from to buy all these? sigh~
but i must have one nice looking bag! my friend also said worth to buy.
conclusion, tennis is really RICH people's sport game.
i just a poor person, how come i took part in this sport before?
but i really excited for the mssp.
just now went for my friend (mr.JiPi) ping pong mssd match.
he has named for ping pong mssp. wow~ and another friend (Yam) also going for basketball mssp!
this week and next week totally will be MSSP big days.
good luck for my friends who are going for the next challenge!
wish me good luck too la! work hard, work hard, work hard!!!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

going to be tough

3rd april will be tennis MSSP. I'm worry about myself.

tomorrow 26th march, training will start...

this time no one accompany attend to training...

feel a bit lonely~

but i have to make it through! i must get it. is my final year for it.

hope god bless me la.

*a mi to fo*